>>>The 1st Step to Change<<<

The landscape is dark covering with black and heavy cloud,
I started to headed toward my unseen destination.
I wonder someday,
will I keep traveling when I was lost?
Even with this tiny wings of mine,
will I able to walk upon the cloud above?
I try put everything infront,
I end up hurting myself.
Feeling empty inside my heart
and the sky started to rain,
the every rain drop,
hitting on me like needle in my heart...

The things that I have done,
it cannot be erase easily...
It is just like wiping water from a glass in the rain,
no matter how many time you wipe,
how hard you try,
the rain will still put another few drops of water on the glass
and it will never end...

I hope that i will try to change,
even that it is just abit.
I also know that is hard to change,
but what make me change is my heart,
and what make it hard to change is my soul.

I don't know how to be a perfect person,
AH~ GOMEN NE~ (AH~ I AM SORRY~)
I keep saying that,
to cover my imperfection...

I hate everything,
so dun give me everything
.
I am fine remain what i have and who i am now.
Stop pushing other non-sense inside of me.

I show up my hand and try to reach toward the star,
it's too far and I can't even touch it.
It make me realize tat something in this world cannot be achieve.
But it wouldn't stopping me from changing.

I may not know what my future hold after that,
but remain unchange is not an option.
We have to advance even it is still hurt.
That what make us [A PERSON]

Re-Think~

We often face with some decision or choice.
Normally we will start thinking which one is better while we take our steps.
Human always think in a way that:
If other people think is good,
It will be good,
and it is hard to think in different way no matter how you deny it.

[A person] is hard to change it mind,
there is something that one’s cannot accept,
it will go against their principle or ‘way of life’

Actually that thinking is what keeping us inside our own 'box'.
This is because some simple reason,
human cannot stay conciuos anymore outside the box.
It is too hard for human to accept those thing.
When human step outside the 'box',
they will become indifferent
and unable to survive in this world,
ending their life soon after...

Staying on the high ground,
I started to see that the world is so big.
How can a small people like me can survive in this large world?
It even feel hard to understand,
the thought of other that around me.
I wonder with the small step of mine,
will I be able to walk in this large world,
and make this world to change?
While slowly changing thing around me that I wish to change...

Walking toward an unseen future,
wondering will I be regret after all that i done,
taking the step that I think is OK.

When it is raining and it is sunny too outside,
if we didn’t walk outside under the sun,
how we know that the sun is warm?
And we will also don’t know,
the rain that come with the sun is also warm.

“For what I am living for?”
I still shouting out load...

WE ARE THE SAME !!

Everything in this earth depends on each other to survive,
why that we still can't understand each other??

The world is full of lies,
there are too many lies until people did not believe in the truth anymore.
They started to think that the truth they heard was a lie...

What is left in this world of lies?
A heart that is numb and cool,
lying loneliness in a place forgotten by people,
waiting for hope...

We always try to say that we are different,
in fact we are all the same...
Cling on hope and each other to survive...

Even we are bounded to hatred,
or even consume by pride,
the sun will not forget to shine everyday.

While old generation involved in conflic,
young generation put their face on the ground,
seeing the black ant foot print,
hoping that they can be like them working together...

Kids hold their face, the world is in spring if they smile.
Spring, Summer, Autumn, Winter, all these four special occasion,
all show different sky at night,
but all is belong the same sky...
Trying to show the world that:
One is all and all is one...
WE ARE THE SAME !!

Stoping A-While to Moving On~

What are we wish for?
For who sake that we work hard and hurt for?
The dream we have is like a floating emptiness,
I am tired and I wanted to close my eye.

I still have a long life time ahead of me,
but I still have many things that I haven't finished in the past.
I hope I can continue the thing I left in the past,
so that I can see my path more clearly.

I suppose to be chasing after my dream,
but why to i intent to stop now?
The dream is so far and I just only can see it.
Hoping...that...
I know someday I will find the thing I am chasing for.

Why didn't I hold on that something when I was young?
...and started to find it again now,
but cant find it...
the reason to be happy, and to be alive

I have always know that,
the closer we get to that something,
the harder for us to see the pain when we lost it.
And also the greater the pain we get.

Even we lost all our hope and dream,
the sun will not forget to shine.
The world is still moving on...
Just that we are stopping by ourself...

I try to push on,
stopping once in a while to look around,
so that the thing around remind me what I looking for...


By : Takama Raigin(a.k.a. : yin) 银天

Shatter~’Love’~'Care’ - Part 3

I always hope for a better future,

hoping that someday I will find my answer…

Putting in effort so that the future I hope will come one day,

but as I was doing my best in life,

I had forgotten that, future is always there,

and if you open your palm the future is in your hand.

Sometime I think I looked at the sky too much,

forgotten what is on the ground…

Maybe I should see clearly, trying to get it that,

we always wanted to fly… but…

We may not have the ability,

or even if we have, we doesn’t have to fly,

because we can always choose ‘not to fly’.

Day pass by, good day or bad day,

It really doesn’t matter,

because everyday in life is important, as experience to us.

Good day give us memory and reason to smile,

bad day give us knowledge and lesson of life…

I try to see this world in a different view,

Maybe not from the sky above me,

But from the ground where I standing…

To see, what different between people that live in this era,

and those who live before us…

To see, what we have gain all this time,

and what have we lost…

I will try to stand firm in this ground,

before I started to fly…

Just like flower, or grass that on the ground,

gazing at the sun, put its dream upon the wind…

and at last, still hoping…




By : Takama Raigin(a.k.a. : yin) 银天

Shatter~’Love’~'Care’~Part 2

Maybe I was too afraid to care…

because of a simple reason, a simple theory.

Just imagine a firecracker is exploding,

if it explode outside your hand,

you’ll just get burn.

But if it exploded when you are holding it inside your hand,

you will be hurt deeply and badly.

The more we care for other,

the more we will hurt each other.

Maybe it is better not to care at all…

Is to prevent taking the risk…

I walked the path people less walk by,

and it is full of thorn and grasses.

No one ever notice me all along…

I hold on what I believe tightly till today,

hoping that someone will take my hand and say to me :

‘Sometime it is good to let it go.’

Maybe it is not me that don’t understand the word ‘love’,

but for me that hate this world and myself so much,

just maybe is me that don’t deserve to be loved.

Sometimes I wonder,

what really matter to us that live in this sinful world?

No one ever told me that I am not alone…

If I had wings,

the wings will never drop a feather because there wasn’t any there.

The wings were form from nothing else but just bone.

A wings that can’t even fly…

I had saw backside of many people,

what they show is only ‘care’… about their own problems…

Ignoring that other people have theirs too.

But still, someone say to me that thing can change.

In the end,

I hope that we will all notice that,

the firecracker will exploded.

No matter it is inside or outside your hand,

it will still hurt…





By : Takama Raigin(a.k.a. : yin) 银天

Shatter~’Love’~'Care’ - Part 1

Wherever I go, whoever I meet,

they all show me only hatred and pain…

I was lost I couldn’t find my way

looking beyond the star everyday,

searching and believing…

that someday I will find the answer.

When looking at the sky at night,

I feel like the sky in the night seem not dark,

they looked so bright although there is no moon.

Because deep down inside my heart,

the darkness there is more darker than everthing…

Lying in a hole,

I though I’ll forever be here…

Always, always,

I though I am nothing,

all thing around us is unprecious and temporary,

we all just wait time to wilt and our life to end…

One person said to me that,

there is something to make my life brighter,

that is one thing in our life that called caring or love.

And it is for me to find out myself.

I have tried so many times,

but I still can’t accept it,

because is me who don’t know what is love or care, and

the society and environment is somehow not supporting.

Definitely not encouraging.

From what I saw,

from since to now I only saw pain,

I only know what is hatred…

The world we live in is full of selfishness,

Everyone care more about themselves than others.

Maybe it is better not to understand the word ‘care’ and ‘love’…

But, my heart is telling me to search what is ‘happiness’…




By : Takama Raigin(a.k.a. : yin) 银天

朋友的距离(part 5-END)

过了一段时间，我开始想起，在看着你要离去时，我所发觉的事情，

那就是我们小时候定下的约定。

我一直都以为你已经把它忘了，其实，是我。。。

我们小时候约定过，

不管未来变得怎样，不管我们选择什么道路，

我们会用我们的双手保护我们曾经在一起的天空。

每天朝着我们看着的太阳，用所有努力去追求我们各自的梦想。

你只是选了和我不同的道路。。。

我不知道自己的道路是否正确，可是我知道是我错了。

是我忘了我们小时候的约定 ，是我把我们相近的距离拉远。

因为我的失误，我将会复出代价。

那个代价就是。。。要一个人孤独在黑暗里，走完自己的人生。

过去的事情不能再回头，你也不再这个世界了。

在战斗过后，到底我们赢到了什么？

什么都没有。。。剩下的，也是空虚而已。。。

但是，我答应你，

我会抛弃所有的眼泪和迷惑，

向着光亮的未来伸出我的手，

因为我们曾经晒着一样的太阳，淋着一样的雨水，

你相信的未来，我会用我的双手去保护它。

保护我们在这个世界珍贵的东西，

直到我们的[心]，再次相近为此。。。




By : Takama Raigin(a.k.a. : yin) 银天