Walking Towards Horizon

The horizon I wanted to see is so far from me,
I only can draw out now the sky I wanted to view,
But doesn't know when can i going to see it~

Looking at the sky,
is not the sky i always draw'ed or wanted
It's so hard to breath and i can't even see any light.
Everything around me look like enemy,
even the light from the sun shine painfully toward my eye

I feel that i can't breath right,
it feel so pain inside my heart
it feel like i was in the depth of the sea
and have no idea how to float to the surface.

The rain falling down like it try to comfort me,
Star on the sky shine like they talking to me
THEY(the star) keep telling me:
STAR will always be STAR and ME is still ME,
stop putting my hope on them.

I always been thinking,
even a small existence as myself,
can't I have a small wish that come true?
A wish upon the star?
A wish to change the thing around me now,
a wish to make me step closer to my own existence.

I know life is just a simple thing,
they will fade away and be forgotten someday.
But isn't walking our life, trying to be strong,
is the way of life? A way to tell that we still living?

Destination is still far away,
and it look like I am just begin my step,
but as long as I keep walking,
I sure I can feel the warm of light at the end~

Feel the Beats !!!

Everyone ! Where are you going?
Stop awhile and enjoy the beats !!

The music is beating !
our heart is beating !
our life is beating !
our soul is beating !
our dream is beating !

Oh yeah, can u hear my shouting voice?
oh yeah, can u hear the chirping of bird?
oh yeah, can you hear the wish in my heart?
oh yeah, oh yeah~

I just have a simple wish and hope,
Dear God,
please gather all the light and shine upon me that have to face tomorrow.

The sun and moon repeatly look over us,
always telling us did we forgot something?
Always remember our dream,
and thirst for it until we can see it coming !
even we not yet achieve it,
we will still able to smile by doing so~

Combine [time], [place] and [people],
working hard adding bit by bit toward our dream,
Slowly, but surely, we're walking our way !!
Hang in there and keep walking !!

Even someone cast a forgotten magic upon me,
my heart will still able to hold on that feeling,
the feeling of me chasing my dream,
and the feeling of all the light calling upon me to fullfil my dream !

"あなたが自分の夢 [Anata ga jibun no yume
この手の中" Kono te no naka]
(Your own dream,
It's in your hand !)
Grab and fullfill it !!!

Forgotten Dream~

What are we doing right now?
Do we understand what we doing right now?
Do we remember our childhood dream right now?
Do you know we are here right now?
And our dream is still inside us right now.
And do you know we can still chase after miracle?

Take a stop or a step behind,
start to think since when we started to stop believing in miracle.
We all have dream to believe when we were young,
but now we all stop believing.
Is to cope with society?
Or to fullfill our parents expectation?

You know the closer we get to that something,
the tougher we to reach it.
Never take things for granted !!
That what I learn while persuit-ing my dream.

So many question inside my head start asking.
But I don't have any answer for all of them.
I cry out load asking the dark night sky for answer,
but what I get is just a chill of cold and emptiness.

With heart and courage I pressed on,
cling to something that I know,
world is always survival of the fittest,
the strong shall live and the weak shall die.

To err is human,
and to forgive is divine.
Peace cannot be keep by force,
it only can be achieve by understanding.
That is the true peace we all wanted,
but the society doesn't work out like this,
is the human nature to be competitive.

To pursuit my dream,
I try google for answer but didn't found them.
I search youtube but all non-sense coming out.
Yet something inside me doesn't wants to give up now,
still hoping to taste the sweet dream I have.

Should I give up my dream now?
As I as myself.
I have a clear answer just for this question.
The answer is definitely:
NO !! Not over my dead body !!
I'll keep on believing and chasing after my dream,
until one day my body is rotten or my dream achieve.

For those who battle with the society,
and almost giving up your dream,
read this and get up !!

Put courage in our heart !!!
Put hope in our own miracle and dream !!
Chase after tomorrow !!
Lets GO !!

Pain of One's Dream

Living in this world,
we cannot truly relax.
Even we lying down,
we will keep thinking about our problem,
thinking about how or what we do for tomorrow...

"Work hard toward your dream.
Tada sore dakede!! (That's all to it!!)
No matter the result."

That's the word I heard one day
and started to think deeply about it.
I remember that time I was ending my education,
and I thought I should think clearly about my future,
about what I want !

Trying hard to reach my dream,
realize that dream is something we think we can hold close,
but in fact is far.
Dream always seem so close and yet far to reach...
True that dream is not easy to reach,
there is lots of obstacle,
time, quietness, pain, darkness...
They all come in different ways and hitting hard when you are down.
Sometime I wanted to give up,
but thinking how I will regret after this,
I choose to press on...

The pursuit and taking step toward dream is hard,
but the hardest part is...
when no one understand it,
and no one supported u.
[FAMILY] They keep on asking and pressure you to take the step you didn't want to take;
step that they think is the best for you.
They care more about your future than your feeling.
It's a rough world.

Sometime, I kinda envy those people living in this world.
the world is choke full with problem and they still live on everyday.
Why are we born? and what we born to do?
The answer is always on our heart,
but it is the hardest to find.

Laugh or cry, it's for us to decide.

By: Takama Raigin (a.k.a: yin)

~A Paint to Remember~

When I was young,
I saw other people beating someone,
from that day I swear to myself,
I don't believe in such thing as love that cannot be seen.
Human will not understand each other,
that what I have been thinking.

The sunshine that shine above the sky,
one strike, one strike,
like striking pain in my heart.
I wanted to shout out load and curse on the wind,
so they can bring it away.
But no ones heard my shouting,
nor the wind is carrying it away.

When I was small,
my teacher asked us to paint the colour of the sky.
But the sky I saw was always gloomy,
so I painted the sky in dark blue and black.
My teacher keep saying that this is not the colour of the sky,
it suppose to be light blue and white.
That time, I didn't understand why or what its means.

Until now, the sky I look is still gloomy.
Human never change, history always repeated.
But the sky is a bit different from before.
They are not all dark blue and black.
I see a little of light blue and white too,
even that they are little and hard to notice.
Yeah, that's right, I see HOPE !!

Even the world we in are full with darkness,
they are still some people,
a small handfull of people,
trying to change it to light.

Those effort are little,
and they are struggle to stay,
they may been washed away by the darkness,
but as long as one small light stand,
there is always hope.

I started to realize why teacher are teaching children,
to paint the sky in light blue or white,
rather than dark blue or black.
They are planting something in those children,
a seed, a hope,
that someday may become a tree.

My Heart, My Soul

Open up newspaper this morning,
seeing every news is nothing but disaster,
nothing good or happiness been reported on the paper,
the sadness let me keep asking myself:

Do I still remember or I not remember?
The pain I had before I grow up.
The only "memory" that I don't want to remember,
stopping it keep coming out from my brain.
The merciless memories seem to have no intention of forgiving me,
If I close my eyes, they will always try to come back at me.

Scar may heal in a gentle place, at a gentle pace,
but the place is at an unreachable distance,
that seems to be hard within reach.
People cannot understand each other,
That's why making scar harder to heal.

Look at the scene outside the window,
the sun shine brightly.
Hearing the sound of wind whispering around my ear,
they all are sound of my heart !!

Living on this world,
struggle everyday to find that "something".
That "something" that can prove of my existence.
And then I notice, that "something" is "bond".
Or what people called "relationship"

Always wonder how strong this "bond" will be,
or how long this "bond" will last...
But one thing for sure,
this "bond" grow weaker as time pass ;
when we are not caring for each other.
Until one day it is gone,
and we started to feel our existence is threaten.
Then we started to realize,
what really important to us, and what we always searching for...


By : Takama Raigin(a.k.a. : yin) 银天

Endless Rain

Today the rain fall again;
And the rain keep falling.
It rain toward my gloomy heart.
Will the rain ever stop? I wonder~
For pretty long, it's been cold.
As the rain drop its like a thing called reality.
Why does the rain choose to fall on me?
It choose me who has no where to escape to?
And no where to take cover from it.
How do I escape the rain that fall endlessly?

When the sunny days in my dream come?
Or the sunny days will remain an illusion.
Nestling close to one another to stay warmth,
I don’t understand those things anymore.
All I feel is cold inside my heart and people around me.
I wish someone can come to save me,
or even give me one word of kindness,
saying:
"Its okay, you'll be fine on your own;
If you are not, we'll be there for you !"

The rain keeps on falling today,
endlessly, knowing no end...
During this Endless Rain, in my room,
Who's memory is overlap with mine now?
I can't stop thinking~

Often I think,
the direction I face is not the future,
I kept chasing after the past...
With this feeling, will I be able to press on?

In this world that is not fair and cold,
the sorrow that I felt toward this world,
its like the scenery of this rain,
falling endlessly, and hurting badly.

I doesn't know when will the world change,
or when will I be able to change to world,
those thing look impossible now.

But what I know,
is to press on in this endless rain.
Hoping someday that the cloud will be tear off,
and the sun shine brightly on sunny days...


By : Takama Raigin(a.k.a. : yin) 银天

*~Colour of my own~*

I still have a long way ahead of me... right?
Why can't I paint the way with my own colours?

I have always alone chasing dream that will never reach...
Weather I will have tomorrow or not it doesn't matter;
Weather the sky above me is dark or blue is still the same on ground.

I understand what I look in the eye of other people is important,
even I can't be me !!
Stop lying infront of me, it only hurt us more.
Show each of ourself what is laying inside our heart.
But who really know the feeling inside my heart now?
My heart is shouting out loud.
Can u hear it?

I am running in this whining road bearing my pain;
and I don't even have place to return to~
All the kindness others showed to me,
I appreciate it.
That is why I want to be strong !!
And I am still on my way.

If I still have a long life infront of me to change thing,
this pain is nothing...
But I still can't stop wondering,
"will I be able to change ?"