Waking up to REALITY !! But still BELIEVING !! Still Walking !!

Waking up at middle of the night,
I am unable to sleep.
I can't stop thinking,
What ever we do, we may end up with [Regret].

My past [Story], doesn't interesting at all,
[Life] is hard and the meantime is easy.
[Weakness] only available in human,
Even single cell life style is better than us !

The bless of angel and the curse of devil,
doesn't make any differences in our world.
Human just wanted the best for themselves.
[Strong]? We just try to look tough infront of other~

From the beginning,
we live being compared to other,
we do good but someone do better,
and they look up on the better ones.
yet I will still try to smile.

When you speak about your dream,
other people keep saying: "馬鹿馬鹿しい"
or they keep saying: "Someone has or will done that thing"
[先手必勝]
This law apply to current world.

We live being compare.
But if in this world only consist of 2 people,
by comparing you and me,
my bad day reflect on you,
to show you that your day is better;
and you can live in happiness.
By doing so,
we can still wish each other happiness!

Out of million of encounter,
how can people we meet understand each other?
They try to tell each other their feeling,
but war break out.
It's so sad....

Waking up at night,
I feel like waking up to our cruel reality.
Will it ever change?
I have to find the answer by keep walking !!!



P/S:
For anyone that do not know japanese,
馬鹿馬鹿しい pronouce as [baka baka-shi], generally use as an adjective,
means "That's stupid, really stupid"

[先手必勝] pronouce as Sente Hisshou,
means [The First ones get all the good thing]

Walking Towards Horizon

The horizon I wanted to see is so far from me,
I only can draw out now the sky I wanted to view,
But doesn't know when can i going to see it~

Looking at the sky,
is not the sky i always draw'ed or wanted
It's so hard to breath and i can't even see any light.
Everything around me look like enemy,
even the light from the sun shine painfully toward my eye

I feel that i can't breath right,
it feel so pain inside my heart
it feel like i was in the depth of the sea
and have no idea how to float to the surface.

The rain falling down like it try to comfort me,
Star on the sky shine like they talking to me
THEY(the star) keep telling me:
STAR will always be STAR and ME is still ME,
stop putting my hope on them.

I always been thinking,
even a small existence as myself,
can't I have a small wish that come true?
A wish upon the star?
A wish to change the thing around me now,
a wish to make me step closer to my own existence.

I know life is just a simple thing,
they will fade away and be forgotten someday.
But isn't walking our life, trying to be strong,
is the way of life? A way to tell that we still living?

Destination is still far away,
and it look like I am just begin my step,
but as long as I keep walking,
I sure I can feel the warm of light at the end~

Feel the Beats !!!

Everyone ! Where are you going?
Stop awhile and enjoy the beats !!

The music is beating !
our heart is beating !
our life is beating !
our soul is beating !
our dream is beating !

Oh yeah, can u hear my shouting voice?
oh yeah, can u hear the chirping of bird?
oh yeah, can you hear the wish in my heart?
oh yeah, oh yeah~

I just have a simple wish and hope,
Dear God,
please gather all the light and shine upon me that have to face tomorrow.

The sun and moon repeatly look over us,
always telling us did we forgot something?
Always remember our dream,
and thirst for it until we can see it coming !
even we not yet achieve it,
we will still able to smile by doing so~

Combine [time], [place] and [people],
working hard adding bit by bit toward our dream,
Slowly, but surely, we're walking our way !!
Hang in there and keep walking !!

Even someone cast a forgotten magic upon me,
my heart will still able to hold on that feeling,
the feeling of me chasing my dream,
and the feeling of all the light calling upon me to fullfil my dream !

"あなたが自分の夢 [Anata ga jibun no yume
この手の中" Kono te no naka]
(Your own dream,
It's in your hand !)
Grab and fullfill it !!!

Forgotten Dream~

What are we doing right now?
Do we understand what we doing right now?
Do we remember our childhood dream right now?
Do you know we are here right now?
And our dream is still inside us right now.
And do you know we can still chase after miracle?

Take a stop or a step behind,
start to think since when we started to stop believing in miracle.
We all have dream to believe when we were young,
but now we all stop believing.
Is to cope with society?
Or to fullfill our parents expectation?

You know the closer we get to that something,
the tougher we to reach it.
Never take things for granted !!
That what I learn while persuit-ing my dream.

So many question inside my head start asking.
But I don't have any answer for all of them.
I cry out load asking the dark night sky for answer,
but what I get is just a chill of cold and emptiness.

With heart and courage I pressed on,
cling to something that I know,
world is always survival of the fittest,
the strong shall live and the weak shall die.

To err is human,
and to forgive is divine.
Peace cannot be keep by force,
it only can be achieve by understanding.
That is the true peace we all wanted,
but the society doesn't work out like this,
is the human nature to be competitive.

To pursuit my dream,
I try google for answer but didn't found them.
I search youtube but all non-sense coming out.
Yet something inside me doesn't wants to give up now,
still hoping to taste the sweet dream I have.

Should I give up my dream now?
As I as myself.
I have a clear answer just for this question.
The answer is definitely:
NO !! Not over my dead body !!
I'll keep on believing and chasing after my dream,
until one day my body is rotten or my dream achieve.

For those who battle with the society,
and almost giving up your dream,
read this and get up !!

Put courage in our heart !!!
Put hope in our own miracle and dream !!
Chase after tomorrow !!
Lets GO !!